Well. I've accumulated 16 hours of sleep debt so far this week. Hopefully, seeing as it's early yet, I will be able to make up some of that tonight. Four hours or less of sleep each night is simply not enough. I must admit, though, that I was feeling good yesterday. It was the third day of running on so little sleep but it hadn't really caught up to me yet. So, I had my cake and ate it, too, because I did all the fun stuff I wanted (had friends over on Sunday night, talked to Josh late Sunday, registered to vote and went out to lunch with Danny on Monday, went out to dinner with my family on Tuesday night,rented Scotland, PA) and also got my term paper done. Last night I went to Santa Rosa after school to check out Vertical Call, a ten day prayer and worship thing. It was awesome just to be there. Normally, I am super outgoing and make tons of friends when I go to things like that, but this time was different. I felt like God just wanted me to meet him this time. I went in to the big tent and sat down by myself in a deserted row of cold metal chairs. The grass underfoot was brown and crushed but it still filled the air with a fresh scent. I prayed and worshipped. As the place began to fill with people, a rather large group of college-age students infiltrated the area around me. Thankfully, they left the two seats between the aisle and me open, and one empty seat on my other side. Worship and prayer and God's presence was wrapped around me. My breath felt pregnant and content as it swirled around in my chest. An interesting prophecy came forth for the youth generation; it was from the story in Ezekiel of the valley of dry bones. Coolies. During a long break, I sat and prayed. Some random man sat down and asked if he could pray for me regarding the prophecy, so I let him. A little later, a pastor from further north came and talked to me. He came back two more times, bringing his wife, and they prayed for and prophesied over me. One thing that was totally right on was what the wife, Ellie, prophesied. She said she saw a field of wheat, bending and swaying in the wind, so it looked like an ocean. She said that has been me, going with the flow, bending . . . but that God wants to plant me as a tree by the river, with strong, deep roots. That was the bomb because I've been thinking all week how I just lay down on everything. And I'm tired of looking back at each day and seeing missed opportunities. Later on, during a break, the people around me were talking in clusters. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw one guy keep turing toward me but I never looked to see if he was trying to catch my eye. Eventually, he tapped me on the shoulder, struck up a conversation, and sat down. How nice of God to send a cute, nice someone to talk to me for a couple of minutes. This is more proof that dating is not all it's cracked up to be; you don't have to be out advertising yourself to meet people. I left around 10:30 and stopped for coffee so I would be a safe driver. Shortly thereafter, I got pulled over. Ironically, I was eating a donut. Normally, I would make a predictable joke here about how he must have caught a whiff of it, but he was really nice and didn't give me a ticket for apparently having no tail lights so I won't. Well, the coffee shafted me and there was no way I was sleeping after I got home around midnight. Luckily (perhaps) for me, Josh was online so we talked . . . for umm . . . a long time. Seriously. It was freaky, he was doing some shopping at Hot Topic.com and I had been there the night before. He showed me what he got and it was all stuff about which I had thought "If I were a guy, I would wear that." He likes me SO much, and I do like him, and it's not EASY. He's a Christian, sort of . . . he is a Christian in that he believes and stuff but he is like against organized religion and stresses the intellectual aspect more, believing that seeking to understand God is the best way to get closer to Him. I don't really know how to handle that because his life is very un-Christian but he doesn't understand why I think we are not spiritually compatible, even if I did decide to try dating (which I'm NOT! because I don't want a relationship founded on ATTRACTION and EMOTION). Anyway. Ugh. God must have something cool coming up for me, why else would distractions like this be here all of sudden? Oh and this morning I officially became a yuppie by agreeing to kick down $400 a year for CELL PHONE SERVICE, ew.
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