I think time goes progressively slower during the last two hours of work. Like I'll be reading and, hoping that I was so lost in the book that at least half an hour stole by, I look at the clock. Invariably, like four minutes will have trudged through. So at the moment I'm cruising through DeviantART. I don't know how valuable that site is though. I remember back when I posted art on the Art & Drawing forums and people would link their DA accounts and every time I viewed someone's work on that site, all the comments were "hey awesome" or "WOW" or "that's really great >^.^<" That's what I'm seeing now that I've joined. . . no one offers anything constructive, everyone just strokes everyone else's ego. Encouragement is good, but it doesn't help me improve. Viewing other people's work does help inspire me sometimes though - when I'm not reeling from the volume of incredible art out there and wondering how I can possibly hope to be anything more than a drop in the bucket of mediocrity, that is. Anyway. Did I tell you I'm going to a new school this semester? I'm going to go to Santa Rosa, to the richest JC in the state. It is like the polar opposite of the community college I've been going to . . . six portables and a computer lab in a cruddy part of the county vs. beautiful brick buildings two minutes from downtown. A student population predominantly composed of 40+, nursing students, and veterans, vs. one of predominantly college-aged people who may actually go somewhere when they're done here. It feels really weird to be so happy that I'm transferring to a better community college. This feels so foreign, compared with everything I planned and prepared for. I remember what I thought about people who lived with their parents and went to community college after they graduated . . . I remember having my identity wrapped in being this stellar student. Now I will be just another of many. Yeah, pride does come before the fall. Thank you, God, for not letting me continue with that pride consuming me. So, I'm excited about going to the JC. I can't wait to meet some new people who are closer to my age. Also, I will be down there two days a week (had to clump my classes due to the 1 hour+ commute), and both days will include a 6 hour break. Soooo, hopefully I can hang out with a few adored people who live down there. And hopefully I will be able to hook up with some sort of Christian fellowship for college kids. Know what I don't get, AT ALL? Gackt.
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